Saturday, February 25, 2006

.... i.e. .....

I had a really good day today. Basically I've found that I'm an introvert that finds comfort in being extroverted. I really find myself comfortable when I'm with people. I do like having time to be alone, but I think to stay sane I need to have human interaction of some sort every day. So if I seem a little clingy for whatever reason, i apologize, it's basically because of that feeling of sanity and comfort in being around people. In the past two weeks I've gotten out a little bit more and gone to other places that I hadn't gone to all that much. By doing so I actually found these people wanting me around.

About a week ago there was some game night deally in my ward. I went because something fell through and I thought, hey, why not? Well after having a good game of anagrams with Optimistic , he left and I decided to stick around. We ended up playing some catch phrase which turned into singing catch phrase. Which brought about the best song of the night, "Mary had a Spinal Tap." Well one of the girls in that apartment had a birthday this week and I totally missed the flier and forgot about it. Well today when talking to her roommate apparently she at one point said, You know it's too bad 3M couldn't be here." That actually made me quite happy. I know I've got a lot of wonderful friends who want me around, but to have someone I barely know, say something like that was a little invigorating.

I always find it interesting how, when you have a bad day, somehow, the next day is a great day. The balancing act of it all. That's all from me tonight, I'm actually posting quite a lot lately, maybe I'm over my writer's block again.

Friday, February 24, 2006

Lack of Choices

Burn was driving the car back to Claremont, New Hampshire. Due to us having smashed out Toyota Carrola we now had to share a car. So he was driving us all back to Claremont at which point I and the Brick would head back across the border. Well as he was driving Pricey yelled from shotgun, "Skunk! Skunk! Skunk! Turn around, I saw a skunk!" Burn as stupid as his hair was red, did as he was told and turned the car around. The skunk in question tried to get away from the two ton beast by hiding in a graveyard, truely not the best option. Burn drove into the graveyard and and pointed the lights at the skunk who was halfway up a snow bank. The two thousand beast sped up the snow bank nearly running over the skunk, luckily the skunk had a defense against such huge besats. As we drove towards Claremont suddenly a stench of mammoth preportions came upon us. I smelled like a skunk for three days after that.

Now what was I doing during this story? I was in the back seat yelling at Burn, telling him to stop, telling him he was stupid and a jerk. I tried to convince him in anyway possible and yet I still smelled like a skunk afterwards.

Here, I had no choice. I payed the consequences of someone else's actions. Do you ever feel like there is no choice and you're just sitting in the back seat waiting for the driver to run over a skunk?

I'm pretty lucky. My family doesn't push me about dating or getting married. They're not pushy about me going to church or having a calling. They like my hair, and don't mind me growing it out. They support me going into film. Yet at the moment, I am completely dependent on them. I have no money of my own. To even become independent I would still have to be dependent on them to get to that point. Because of this, there is one choice. School. Now don't get me wrong, I love school and it's definatly something I need to do. However, when it's the only choice, you find yourself becoming restricted and stuck. That's how I feel. Most people are able to go to college and be away from their parents for a long while, then they can leave their college town for a couple of months to live with the family. Me? I have both at the same time, all the time. I see my parents almost daily, I have college almost daily. To have a three month break is to go no where. I feel like my only choice is this town.

Now I have great deals here. I have a whole lot of awesome friends. My family is very supportive. The college situation is perfect, I have two options of college, one where I can go for free, the other I can go for half of what everyone else can. I have easy work.

Yet I can't leave. I have nothing anywhere else. I'm a man that needs change every once in a while. I have a hard time staying in the same place and staying sane. So today I decided I could make a choice and get out of here. But it's going to take a lot of work just to get out of here for a couple months. I talked to my dad about all the different options, he shut down just about all of them. It also seems that when I declare the possibility it gets shut down immidiatly. I did that today, I said on BB that there was a chance of me going to Boston, about fifteen minutes later, that door was shut really fast. I think I would even feel fine if I even just had the option of getting out of town, even just having an open option like that and I could stay.

Maybe I'm just crazy. A little too open minded perhaps? I can't do things conventionally. I just can't. There's something in my brain that says, no, you can't do it this way. For instance, I can't go with the simple philosophy of, you go to school, you get a job, you provide for a family with said job. The movie Office Space is an amazing representation of what I want to do. In the movie the main character is presented with the question of what he would do with a million dollars. And he says, "Absolutly nothing." Interestingly enough, that's also what I would do. I would just relax, let the money handle the small expenses, make sure I didn't have any big expenses. I'd study at my own pace. I'd do things at a slower pace. I wouldn't worry too much and I'd be a lot more relaxed. That's what I would do. I would take up the things I really want to do, like turntables. Maybe I'd try making an album, then I'd make my own music videos. I'd live like an artist and not worry about too many things. But you know, maybe I'd be fine with just going to school, getting a job and providing for a family as long as there was a possibility of doing those things. I think that's all some of us really need, we need our dreams to be within reach, even if we have very little chance to get to them, at least there is a chance. But to have that chance dissappear is very frustrating.

I dunno.

I am going to attempt to get out of Provo for the summer. Even if I were say 3-4 hours away. That would be good enough. We'll see, maybe all of this is for naught, and I'll get married in April or something. Yeah right, that's about as likely as getting sprayed by a skunk.

Thursday, February 23, 2006

Let's call this planet, Bob.

I'm now going to tribute BAWB and do this all in his style. Sorta. More like, show you all my current links and what not.

I'm really happy about it's treating me well as an internet radio station. It also feeds my addiction of having people listen to my music. Speaking of music, I am really happy with the current influx of music coming into my life. Plus, I'm also super excited about having a music party with Azurerocket which should hopefully happen sometime in the next two weeks. It'll mostly be trading of cds, so anyone else in the mood for trading cds can come out as well.

Netflix continues to do me quite well. I've now decided that most if not all of the dvds I take from it are going to be seasons of tv shows. I'm currently in the third season of Star Trek: Deep Space 9 If you end up joining at some point let me know and I'll add you to my list. Oh, I just found out that the "The 5th Annual OFFICIAL STAR TREK CONVENTION Celebrating The 40th Anniversary of Star Trek" is going to be in Las Vegas in August. I think it would be so much fun to go to that! Incredibly nerdy, incredibly fun. If anyone else wants to go, let me know, I think I'm going to plan on it.

Due to checking out the links section on Blue Adagio's Blog I am now addicted to Online Pictionary. I didn't think I would become addicted until I found the expert movies room, and I can't get enough of that one. If anyone wants to do any online gaming with me, that's an option as is Hearts and/or Spades online as well.

A very good friend of mine, in whom is probably my longest known friend since I've known him since the age of 6, posted a really funny Valentines Day Poem Go check it out and let him know how it is, he doesn't get too many comments so it'll be funny for him to suddenly get a lot from people he doesn't know.

Who is Lou Richards the First? Probably the biggest extra in the business, that's who.

For those that like writing in either fantasy or mutant type styles, and are interested in possibly writing RPs (Or stories involving more then one writer) should check out X-Wars it's currently about dead, which means we sort of need some more people to come and write. I've been a member of it for 9 years now. It's what originally got me addicted to the internet in the first place.

The Ultimate Showdown is one of my favorite cartoons on the internet right now. it's a good one. Also my good friend Kathy has put her Art Portfolio online.

That's all for this edition, next time, I'll go to my old computer, find all the old links on there and put them in, give you a high school edition of this deal.

Sunday, February 19, 2006

The Four Thoughts of the Apocolypse

First Thought. I know I have to be patient. I'm actually quite good at being patient. I can see why I was molded to be able to patient for very long periods of time. But still, there's still that nagging feeling of when oh when will it finally happen. I guess the one thing I need to do is be patient. Ugh.

Second Thought. If you haven't seen it yet, go to The Perry Bible Fellowship and then choose the third comic entitled Punch Bout. I couldn't stop laughing when i first saw it, though as a word of warning to my readers, unless you're fine with very disturbing humor, the others may not be for you. But the punch bout is one everyone should see.

Third Thought. I can't wait until I have a fully functional internet. This one still gives me problems even after I upgraded. I have to pay 10 bucks for faulty internet. Ugh.

Fourth Thought. It is official. I now do not like sleep at all. I wish I didn't have to do it. There are so many things I want to do and sleep just takes too much time.

(This will post at about 6:05 in the morning. Unlike usual I did sleep before this.)

Thursday, February 16, 2006

Four Things

I was tagged. By my good friend Jessica Benet, so now for your viewing pleasure, my four things.

Four Things

Four Jobs I've Had

1. BYU custodial of the Museum of Ancient Peoples and Cultures

2. Summer Camp Counseler

3. Counceler for Mentally Handicapped Children

4. Babysitter

Four Movies I can watch over and over

1. Zatoichi

2. Kung Fu Hustle

3. Spiderman 2

4. Dragnet

Four Places I've Lived

1. Londrina, Brazil

2. Haverhill, Mass

3. Montpelier, Virginia

4. St. Paul, Minnesota

Four TV Shows I Love

1. The Office

2. The Critic

3. Cowboy Bebop

4. Star Trek: Deep Space Nine

Four highly regarded and recommended TV shows that I've never watched a single minute of

1. Lost

2. CSI

3. Stargate SG1

4. Buffy the Vampire Slayer

Four Places I've Vacationed

1. Bahamas

2. Mexico

3. Washington DC

4. Green Bay Wisconsin

Four of my favorite dishes

1. Fejuada

2. Mashed Potatoes

3. Curry

4. Mountain Dew

Four sites I visit daily

1. Blue Beta

2. Captain SNES

3. Captain SNES Forums

4. Netflix

Four Places I'd rather be right now

1. Seattle

2. Boston

3. Torrino Italy

4. In a Hot Air Balloon

Four Bloggers I am tagging

Let's go with the first four to read this. If you read this you have to post a comment and then we'll see who the first four are.

Tuesday, February 14, 2006

Happy Valentines Day

In the spirit of being stuck inside due to sickness I thought an update would be in order.

The biggest and happiest news right now is in the progress of my brother. For those that don't know I have two brothers. The youngest Michael is 13 and he has autism. His development has been very slow and it's been tough but he's the most loving kid ever so it's definatly worth it. Well one thing we had just given up on was his potty training. About five years ago we were able to push him to be able to pee in the toilet but he's been wearing diapers still up to this point. Well out of accident, a miracle happened in our house. Apparently when my brother needed to go, eh looked for a diaper but couldn't find one, so he went to my mom who was really busy and she didn't understand his need for a diaper being as how his communication is limited to about ten letters of the alphabet. (i.e. Outside is "I", Ball is "aw", etc...) Well in a last ditch effort he went in the toilet. Ever since he's gone in the toilet and diapers have no longer been needed. My parents are so happy and he entire extended family have been in an uproar since the news came out.

The other good news is my parents finished building a house in Woodland Hills. So once this semester is over they'll move into it. Well that does create a slight problem, because my parents are currently house sitting for a couple who is still on their mission. So when the semester is over I'll be moving out of this ward which I've been in for a year and a half and move into the house myself. So during the summer I'll have a house all to myself. Then the plan is to move in to an apartment with my buddy Jesse in the Fall. So alas, at the end of this semester I'll bid this ward adieu forever.

The movie shoot went well on saturday, unfortunatly as I've been editing I've found I missed a wide angle shot which was needed and will have to be shot again next time we shoot. But overall it went well, and I found that fight scenes are very tough to film. Thanks to all those who helped out with that.

I now have my entire movie collection online so if you want to borrow something or want to know what I have you can check it out at

I'm so incredibly happy with classes and this is by far the best semester of college yet. I just wish BYU had a class like the one I'm taking at UVSC but they don't. I'm still unsure about whether I'll return to BYU but at the moment it seems unlikely, mostly because it seems that doors might open for me which are better choices then BYU. But we shall see.

Monday, February 13, 2006

Sunday, February 12, 2006

8 cds

I bought 8 cds for 20 bucks the other night so I thought I'd do some mini reviews of them.

The first is cd is by "Air" and it's called Talkie Walkie. This is the first cd I've gotten by Air and the only thing I had heard up to this point was a song called Surfing on a Rocket which is on this cd. So far out of the 8 I like this one the most. They have a very airy feel to their music and it feels very relaxing as you listen to it. I think most people that read this would probably really like the cd.

When I came upon this cd, I thought it looked interesting. So I checked to see who it was and surprisingly it's Chemical Brothers album "Brother's Gonna Work It Out" It's a cd of mixes that Chemical brothers have done of other songs mxed into five long songs. Since I'm already a fan of the Chemical Brothers it seemed like a wise choice. I'm pretty happy with it so far, it makes me long for turntables of my own.

This cd is called "Song Yet To Be Sung" by Perry Farrell. As the former Janes Addiction frontman I expected rockin' songs and wacked out lyrics. However I got more of an electronic sound with just weird lyrics. At the moment I'm not too impressed but it may end up growing on me.

One of my best friends and one of two main music buddies was a big fan of this cd in high school. "Boggy Depot" by "Alice in Chains" former front man Jerry Cantrell showcases the sounds that made Alice in Chains such a popular band. My friend tried to get me into this cd many times in high school, so buying it for cheap seemed like a good idea. I haven't had much of a chance to get into the cd though I do like the second track Cut You In. If you liked Alice In Chains or Soundgarden then you'd like this cd.

"The way your bathed in light, reminds me of that night." I've always meant to buy a Live Album. This one entitled "The Distance To Here" is my first and probably not my last. The one song I knew from before was the lead song The Dolphin's Cry. It's really the only one I've listened to thus far, I hope this band doesn't turn into a Cake band for me where I only like the radio hits, but we shall see.

Weather Report is one of my favorite jazz bands. They were right at the forefront of mixing jazz with electronic sounds. Their version of Birland on this cd entitled "Heavy Weather" is to die for. They take my love of jazz music and give it a modern feel which gives me hope for jazz music that maybe it can get out of conventional means and not be stuck in it's original restrictions. I could write a whole article on why Jazz was made to break barriers but now if it does people scoff and why that sucks. But I'll save that for another day. This is the first jazz cd I've bought in a while and it sure is a good one.

I know very little about the "Freestylers" and I usually pride myself on knowing about stuff like this. I learned of the Freestylers in high school when watching a show they used to have on MTV called Amp which showcased different techno and djs. I saw the video, liked it and looked for some of their music. I couldn't find it anywhere. Until the other day when I saw this cd for $1.50, I was wicked exctied and I'm glad I got it, they still have that raw dj sound that intially drew me to them. If you like record scratching and mixing of old school stuff then the Freestylers is a band you should check out.

Lastly we have "Fatboy Slim's Greatest Remixes Volume 1." I am already a huge fan of Fatboy Slim and hearing him remix other stuffs melts me stony heart. I knew the moment I saw it I had to have it and it hasn't dissappointed. It sounds like he made this around the time of his first album, so he still keeps to his conventional methods of mixing. I'd really like too hear one that he would do now, I think it would be very funky. If you haven't had a listen at his newest album Palookaville you are missing out on some amazing music. But if you want some old school mixing of underground techno songs then this is the one to get.

I sure do love music.

Wednesday, February 01, 2006

Battle of The Sams Part 1

So check this out. First I must reitterate that I really like my film class. But now here in lies a problem. So I got into the film class a day late. It was the second day of class and we had an assignment due. Well what the assignment was, was we were supposed to come up with a plot for a 6-10 minute movie which would be our final project for the class. So the teacher told me to come up with something quick and present it. Well I had already had a project I wanted to do called "The Battle of The Sams" which I was just going to do with friends. Well I presented the idea of this movie and it was chosen as one of the 6 movies that we were going to do. So I got a crew of two other guys in the class. Well I thought it was going to be fine until one of the guys stopped showing up for class. So now it's down to the two of us. Which is still fine, but a little unnerving. So, I'm going to start shooting this next week which I'm pretty excited about. As a reminder as well to some I've talked to and some that I may not have. If there are girls willing to be a part of the movie, let me know. I'd probably take a saturday or two out of your lives this month or next month. Depending on what you are. I've got Celeste planning on being in it, and I think I can get Trixie, but that may mean I may need one more. I think I told Jade about it a while back but I don't know if she'd still be willing to be in it. But if she is, I could also use her help behind the scenes and it could help for her getting into the film program as well. So Jade if and when you read this, let me know. I'm going to need someone to work the camera if you're interested. I also may need someone to help out with props and whatnot. So if you want to help out with this project let me know. If you want a look at the script it's at

type in the password "scranton" and you can see it. It's a silent movie, so there is no dialouge.

I'm going to be able to use this big professional camera for it, so I'm excited. I'm going to call some of you as well just to see if you can help, but let me know. Anywho, once this is done it'll be the first thing on my new website, and if it's any good I'll probably have a premire for it too.